War Within

Yo, I was born in a war, not of blood but of mind,
Every thought like a sword tryin' to sever my spine.
Tryin' to rewind all the lies I believed,
Like, "You ain't worthy," "You ain't clean," "You deceived."

But I met the Word, He cut deeper than doubt,
Tore every stronghold, kicked every demon out.
Ain't no therapist could decode my pain,
But the Ruach cracked open every chain in my brain.

They told me Yah was distant, religion just sells,
But I heard His voice louder than all of hell.
He ain't lookin' for perfection, He came for the wrecked,
Bled for my debt, yeah, He paid every check.

This is war, but I ain't runnin',
I was lost, now truth is gunnin'.
I'm free, not by works,
By the King who broke the curse!
This is war, inside my skin,
But the victory's not within,
It's in the One who bore my sin.
Let the battle begin.

Look,
I used to be numb, just a shell with a grin,
Smile on the face, but rotin' within.
I spit venom on tracks just to hide the cries,
But the silence at night was the real disguise.

Man, I ain't soft, I'm just breakin' the code,
Unloading this pain that I carried alone.
It ain't trauma bars, it's testimony spit,
'Cause the blood on that tree is the reason I live.

I was dead in my sin, like six feet deep,
But the Shepherd pulled me out, now I war with sheep.
He said "Feed 'em truth," I said "They won't chew,"
He said "Say it anyway, it ain't about you."

You ever scream in a room with nobody around?
You ever cry to the sky and wait for a sound?
He answers. Not always how you plan,
But when the fire falls, you'll understand.

So I buried that old me in a lyrical grave,
Now I live by the Book, not the culture's wave.
Ain't chasin' applause, I'm exposin' the lies,
Like "Love is love" while they murder inside.

Nah.
Love tells the truth, even when it stings,
Love don't ignore when rebellion clings.
So I stand with the watchmen, blood on my pen,
Cryin' out loud: "Repent, time's end!"

This is war, but I ain't runnin',
I was lost, now truth is gunnin'.
I'm free, not by works,
By the King who broke the curse!
This is war, inside my skin,
But the victory's not within,
It's in the One who bore my sin.
Let the battle begin.